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i just spent two days in front of a television.
16 episodes of Downton Abbey.
so very shameful…
it felt good to get lost in a story that is not my own - to feel the full spectrum of emotions - to forget about my troubles…
now i see why people read fiction.
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there is a tiny little person being formed with intricate detail inside of my womb.
the fruit of my wandering ways and “free spirit” is a growing heart. a growing mind. a growing body.
oh dear.
what a wild tale i’ll have to tell in my old age.
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— marianne williamson
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lovely. simply lovely….
(dedicated to matthew) <3
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today i drove down to visit my brother - in prison - an all day adventure. two hours there. four hours of visit time. two hours back. it was a nice visit, or at least as nice as visiting a loved one in prison can be. we discussed many things - most of which helped me make some sense of my life. he has a way of opening up my mind and showing me truths that lie dormant within me.
i feel sorry for him. i understand why he must spend the remainder of his days there, but i don’t understand how it happened. or why? it’s confusing - trying to trace it back to his childhood (our childhood) - wondering what went wrong. now all he can do is read and write and try to mind his own amongst the hustle and bustle of the other prisoners. it seems like he doesn’t belong there… a hermit in his cell - reading books about philosophy, history, biology, mathematics, and so on… i wonder how much learning the human mind can take without sharing it or experiencing it?
i hope he is able to put his mind to good use and someday write a book that will help people or advance intelligence or debunk a faulty science theory.
what i mean to say is: i hope he will not be remembered as a monster.
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my friends here in Denver are lovely
and it’s been delightful to see them over the past two days
but at the root of who i am is not a city dweller so i don’t imagine i’ll be staying long.
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getting picked up from the airport by one man who i loved and getting returned to the airport by another man who i love is…well…not what i expected.
the sky cried tears with me as we drove through those gorgeous Carolina hills in their Spring glory - tomorrow i’ll wake up in a bed in my mother’s house.
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GREENWASHING
Have you noticed that everyone claims to be “going green” these days? From Clorox (partnered with the Sierra Club) to Walmart (selling organic veggies) to BP (really? beyond petroleum?), corpo- rations are falling all over them- selves to convince us that they are eco-friendly- even while they’re selling us the same old poison as before! Despite their best efforts at a swindle, we know a wolf in sheep’s clothing when we see one, and we know that we can’t buy our way out of climate change and eco-cide with “greener” individual consumer habits! We need orga- nized, collective action to trans- form a sick society and economy, so we’re changing the system, not just our lightbulbs!
- excerpt from http://www.beehivecollective.org/RESOURCES/COALnarrativeREADINGORDER.pdf
